Thursday, November 16, 2017

Normal Metabolism

Normal metabolism is always something that has eluded me. Either I was eating exactly what I wanted and putting on weight like there was no tomorrow.

Or I was being really really strict and not eating any high calorie foods and having tiny portions and feeling deprived of food.

This banting LCHF seems to suit me much better. Although I am losing weight slower than I have done before I am not having yoyo blood glucose issues and can go for 5 to 6 hrs in the afternoon without any need for snacks or a binge.

At this rate it is going to take me another 2 mths to get below 90kg. But that is fine I dont have any deadlines so leaving my body to get on with it.

Am enjoying being able to cook again now I can trust myself around food. Made a batch of 24 egg muffins yesterday. These had spinach and green peppers and onion blitzed up and then grated cheese added before being baked. I can keep them in the fridge or freezer and pop in the microwave for a few minutes. I have mine with salad for lunch but we have also taken them for a packed breakfast.

Since I have been taking magnesium I have found my nails much stronger. I did snap one yesterday when weaning sheep, I was putting eartags on and they did not like it! But the nail snapped and did not tear. So much stronger than before.

Am looking forward to managing to get back into some of my jeans. I have 7 sizes of clothes so will be able to dispose of the biggest 2 sizes now. Then gradually get rid of the rest as they become too big.

Looking forward to buying some new stuff but not worth getting too much now. I am dropping a size in about 2.5 to 3mths.

Thursday, November 09, 2017

Finally I think its working

I saw a new number on the scale today.

I am losing 0.1kg here and there and not every day, however I rarely see an increase, which is great and every few days I see a lower figure.

With my dieting history I am taking this very carefully. Baby steps as I know how easy it is to see the craving and binging behaviour back. I dont want to go there again.

On previous attempts it has been I need to lose weight as fast as possible so I can go back to my 'normal' eating. Of course my normal eating was totally abnormal which caused the problem in the first place.

So 50 yrs of yoyo dieting. Regular failures, almost guaranteed.

I did try and Atkins type diet a few years back. Last time I was slim. But again I was dieting for a wedding. The diet never seemed to 'gel' with me and I was regularly making a flax bread so I could eat my normal diet. Even flax bread is not something I should be eating regularly.

I have found the magnesium supplements have stopped the afternoon cravings. My afternoons are much more productive. I think of something and then do it. Rather than in earlier times when I would just sit and read and eat in the afternoons, or watch TV.

I have signed up for a Banting Buddies support group and also to train to be a Banting Buddies Coach.

This is all very exciting. I wish I had been told the right information 50 yrs ago instead of trying to put myself through torture, cutting calories and eating carbs and being perpetually hungry and totally miserable.

I feel better at the moment that I have felt for the past 40 yrs. Much more energy and get up and do something.

Also have finally achieved a decent set of nails that have not broken or split yet. Is that due to the magnesium, is it due to the insulin control? I dont know but I am enjoying them while I have them.

Sunday, November 05, 2017


Over the last 50 yrs or so hope has been in short supply.

Every day I would seem to be fighting the same battle. How to stay out of the fridge and pantry in the afternoons and evenings.

Mornings were never so much of a problem. But every afternoon I would be trying to resist the urge to go and find something to eat, then the binge would start.

The afternoon urge seems to be a thing of the past. Now I have finally given up with bread, even wholemeal wheat bread and also started taking magnesium morning and evenings I find I can get through the afternoons and sometimes even enjoy them.

I have now gained another 8 hrs of productivity. After lunch and in the evenings I would never get anything done. Reading and eating seemed to be all I could summon the energy to do.

Over the past 2 afternoon I have been going through my wardrobes. 7 different sizes to try and sort out.

Some big old tops have ended up in the rag bag. Elasticated trousers are going into a bin bag while I decide what to do with them.

Trousers and jeans have been sorted into wear now or very soon. Try again in about 2 months. And maybe a year if ever.

I now have all the tops on the bed in the spare room and will work through those. Throwing the ones I will never wear, then tops for now to go in the cupboard and tops to bring out later to try.

Hope to have lost a couple more kg by Christmas. Just looking for small weight losses, but I do want to see the scale show new lower figures.

Friday, November 03, 2017

Sorting the Clothes

In my cupboards I have about 40 yrs of clothes in 7 different sizes.

Items only get thrown out as rags. My skinny stuff I wore for maybe a few weeks many years ago but ever hopeful I dont get rid of them in the hope that maybe some day a miracle will happen and I will manage to fit back into them!

Well maybe the miracle is on its way. Have dropped about 2 dress sizes in 3 months. I have put all the fat elasticated trousers in a case for now.

Have just been hunting out all the smaller size trousers to see what I have. Surprised to see I have at least 3 pairs of never worn size 14's with labels still attached!

I am not going to try any of these on. Would just depress me when I want to be upbeat about my life.

So the plan is to use the tape measure and measure the waists.

Then will put into 3 piles.

Those I might try on now.

Those I will put on one side for 6 mths time.

Those I wont try on for at least a year!!

Once I have worked through the trousers will then go through the tops and see what is worth keeping.

I tried on my lovely leather jacket and that certainly looks as though it will be wearable in a few months time.

It will be like a dream come true to get back into these smaller clothes and know I will never need the big ones again as I have finally found the answer for me.

Still taking the magnesium. Now 1 tablet in the morning and 2 in the evening. I feel I have so much more energy and am no longer putting things off and not getting round to stuff.

Much easier to get up out of the lounge chair too. 

Wednesday, November 01, 2017

How Can you tell if you have an insulin problem

This is a very insidious problem, you can have had it for years without knowing you have a problem with your pancreas.

Basically your insulin production is too high and your pancreas over reponds to the presence of starch and sugars.

In no particular order these I believe are some of the symptoms.

Having cravings for sweet or starch foods shortly after a meal.

Feeling as though you are in a 'fog'.

Being able to work well in the mornings and not so well in the afternoons and evenings.

Finding your weight is unstable. Clothes get tighter and weight increases.

Yoyo dieting.

Flaky and splitting nails.

Feeling anxious and unhappy and concerned about next meal being hours away.

Binging especially in afternoons and evenings but rarely in the morning.

Feeling out of control around sweet and starchy foods. Especially bread.

Not being able to understand how other people can control their weight while yours seems to be beyond your control.

The worst thing for someone who has an insulin problem is to go on a low calorie diet. Bread and starches are low in calories but increase the insulin secretion. Making you feel uncontrollable hunger.

You have to cut out the sugars and starches and eat protein and vegetables.

The beauty of this is that you know why you put on weight. So once the weight is reduced it is possible to keep it off by not going back to 'normal' eating with all the starch and sugars again.

Your insulin problem is not going to be cured. You have to control it by diet.

Tuesday, October 31, 2017

Insulin control and Magnesium

Another month just about gone.

I have a series of memos on my phone showing weights at various control points, holidays, hair appointments, etc etc.

I then make a note on the memo of my weight on that day, then save it till next time.

I seem to have settled at a weight loss of around 2kg a month.

That is less than I did on my low calorie diets but I feel it is far more sustainable.

I can keep this up for however long it takes.

So total weight loss to date is 11kg in just under 3 mths.

What has made such a difference this time if the absence of cravings for cereal or bread 2 or more hrs after lunch. Now I can have my lunch and then wait until supper for my next feed. Sometimes I do fancy something and maybe have some almonds, or a small dish of my yogurt cheese with xylitol syrup and cinnammon. But I am in control and dont feel I have failed and binged.

I started taking magnesium about a month ago. I have been taking 2 capsules at night along with some tumeric extract.

The other day I also took magnesium in the morning along with my other tablets and vitamins. I am finding I feel better and happier with the extra magnesium so will continue like that.

Magnesium is needed in so many processes at cell level and I have never taken any supplements. So am sure I was deficient.

I like having some nice things in the fridge and freezer that I can heat up for myself. I have frozen mashed cauliflower in individual portions, tomato sauce ( home made so I know what is in it), cooked mushrooms and some quiche muffins.

I made quiche muffins for church lunch and they went very fast. I make them in silicon cupcake moulds so no need for pastry.

Its nice to be able to cook again. Yesterday I made a batch with cooked spinach in them. I make 24 at once and put them in the fridge. My DH also enjoys them hot for his lunch. I put a little milk in the mix about half cream and half milk.

For so many years I have felt depressed about my weight. I was either starving and miserable and then binging or eating like there was no tomorrow.

Its good to find a chemical reason for the problem and finally start seeing some progress. 

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

10kg and counting

Today saw another kg number.

Got to celebrate every achievement.

Always before a diet has been like balloon blowing. You know at some point its all going to blow up in your face and you will binge in a major way and feel its hopeless.

So far I am not getting that feeling at all.

I am making steady progress, maybe not as fast as when I was counting calories but I am rarely seeing gains.

My afternoon snack yesterday was some strawberries I had bought in town, my strained yogurt cheese, spoonful of cream and xylitol syrup. Totally delicious. If there are any strawberries left I will have another portion today at tea time!

I have been making mini crustless quiches in silicon cups. Had 3 of those for breakfast yesterday and not hungry till after 1. Went round the supermarket at 12 without any need to buy something to keep me going.

I have taken up cooking again. Something I did not trust myself to do before.

Just made 72 mini egg quiches with eggs, cream, milk, fried onion, tumeric and herbs.

They can be kept in the fridge for a few days and also eaten cold. But are nice microwaved to warm them up. Eat for breakfast on the go, or with salad for lunch. My DH also likes them for tea time instead of a sandwich.

Cauliflower mash is a staple and home made tomato sauce. That is my usual breakfast with 2 poached eggs.

Will have to dispose of the elasticated big trousers. They are now too big and baggy!

Tuesday, October 03, 2017

So far, doing well

Just had a week away from the scale and been to SA for Dr check ups.

I tried to follow the plan while I was away. Eating out for every meal.

Got back to find lost another Kg.

So thats nearly 9kg lost since I started 2 mths ago.

My breakfasts were poached eggs and bacon, tried to find vegetables but they were either mixed with pasta or with chilli. Stayed away from the bread and fruit.

Lunches were generally salads with protein. Either fish or chicken.

Dinners usually fish or beef with either salad or veg. Did have some rice the one night but only a half portion.

Mid afternoons I tried to have an apple so to avoid going into binge mode.

I can feel my clothes are looser. Will have to start resorting clothes and getting out some of the smaller sizes and getting rid of the big ones.

Finally I believe I can fix this problem I have had all my life.

Take it slow and do it properly. I find I dont need to cheat. I do miss bread and later may try and make a low carb bread for treats but not eat it every day.

Yesterday I made a batch of sauerkraut, some tomato sauce, some mashed cauliflower and a batch of yogurt.

I keep frozen mashed cauliflower in the freezer so I can make a quick meal in the microwave with tomato sauce and maybe a sprinkle of cheese.

Thursday, September 14, 2017

Progress ?

Well am 6kg down in a month.

That has not been too difficult and I dont feel I am being deprived.

Its still early days but the dreadful afternoon eating seems to have gone.

My aim this time is not to diet as fast as I can, so I can go back to 'normal' eating. Normal eating makes me obese as I have real problems with flour products and sugar.

So I have to find a new normal and I think this is it.

I dont feel starving the way I have on previous dietary regimes.

My aim is to lose around 2kg a month, so I am taking this very slow do I dont get back to binge mode again.

I have ordered all the books from Trim Healthy Mama plan. But for now am making do with those I can download.

I have started making the cauliflower mash, and also broccoli when I cant get hold of cauliflowers.
To my steamed veg I am adding bit of cream and butter some black pepper and chicken stock cube or gel. Then blitz it with a stick blender till smooth. I find I can keep this covered in the fridge for a few days.

I have a couple of spoons heated in the microwave with my 2 poached eggs for breakfast.

Lunch is generally a salad with feta cheese, have made sauerkraut so add that and mayonnaise and cider vinegar.

Mid afternoon is an apple. ( I am happy to be able to have fruit as I gave up fruit on Atkins).

Dinner will be some sort of meat, sausage, chicken with veg and more cauli mash.

I am making gravy from my gluccoman that arrived the other day with some meat juices and/or chicken stock.

I am not eating again after dinner, because I dont need to which is a blessing.

If I fancy something sweet I have a tea cup of yogurt with xylitol and cinnamon but I try not to have that every day.

I am trying not to set myself up for failure on this as I have failed so often.

Good my clothes are starting to feel a bit baggy.

Thursday, August 24, 2017

Here we go Again

50 yrs and counting! I have been dieting for sooo long with not a lot to show for it! Or rather too much!

Hope I am finally going to sort this problem out without going to extremes and having surgery!

A couple of weeks ago I had a bit of a scare and had what I am told was a TIA.

I am now on aspirin and hope it does not happen again.

So new attempt and new diet plan.

My daughter has been talking about Trim Healthy Mama plan.

So ordered the books and having a go.

So far it seems to be either meals with protein and fat. plus green veg. Or meals with protein and low GI carbs plus green  veg and no fat.

So it seems doable.

Of course where I live I cant get all the nut and seed flours and special foods.

So will have to work with what I can get.

Will wait and see if I get any results.

Sunday, April 23, 2017

So Far So Good

Weigh day is tomorrow.

Hope to find the weight loss is continuing. I have moved the scale into my daughters flat next door so I am not continually jumping, or rather carefully stepping, on to it, a la Bridget Jones.

I have starved myself down in the past a couple of times. I usually aim for around 64kg. But within a few weeks the cravings get too strong and I find I am eating my way back to my usual mid 90kg.

At the start of this last attempt I was well over 100kg and feeling really tired with no energy.

What I have found is that giving up the milk has definitely made a difference to my appetite control in the afternoons.

From about 3pm onwards I used to continually want to snack and would be visiting the fridge to find something to eat.

Now I can go 3 or 4 hrs without eating anything and then have a nice hot plate of veg with cheese or a cold salad and easily forget about food till the next meal. I can walk past the fridge without opening it to find a little something.

I am just hoping I have finally found the simple answer to my obesity. Give up milk and white carbs. I dont have any bread either.

I feel my legs are thinner but still plenty to go off the centre area.

Today my husband has bacon for breakfast. So I will have a bowl of green beans, home made tomato sauce, bacon and cheese all heated in microwave for lunch just before 12. Yesterday I topped that with anchovy paste to give lots of flavour.

That will be my first meal of the day.

I have hard boiled eggs in the fridge. I cook 6 at a time and have those with some lettuce, maybe avo and mayonnaise and balsamic in the afternoon.

Then what ever meat we are having with green veg and cauliflower. I managed to find some cauliflowers in the local shop.

I am still on my blood pressure pills but wondering if I will be able to cut back in a few weeks time. Will keep checking at home to see if the numbers are fine.

If milk is my problem I wish I had know 50 yrs ago. It would have saved so much grief and upset over the years!

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Three Years Later

At 65 I am fed up with having to continually do this.

I do not want to be the obese woman in the wheel chair and unable to do anything for myself, so this finally has to work and the weight has to stay off.

So even if I have failed on every other attempt over the last 55 yrs I am still going to give it a go.

I got back from holiday 2 weeks ago and decided that enough. I am fed up of looking and feeling like this.

One of the things I have picked up over my reading is that insulin is the main problem when trying to lose weight. Insulin opens the doors to the cells, ushers the fat in and slams the door shut and keeps it shut. The fat cannot get out again if the blood stream is full of insulin. When your body cant get at the fat stores it send panicky messages for more food and the cravings kick in.

I had a fasting insulin text at my last medical. 26, I was told normal is under 10.

One of the most insulicmic foods is milk. I have always drunk milk in my coffee. 6 or 7 mugs of coffee every day. I have switched the skim milk and back again. But never given it up.

This time I have.

My drink of choice is now rooi ( red) bush tea with cinnamon. One tea bag does me most of the day. I just keep adding boiling water to it!

We bought a walking machine and have set it up in the lounge so I can put on a DVD and get some exercise. I am up to 2km a day. Walking only.

I skip breakfast, not really hungry in the morning. I have lunch around 11.30 to 12. Green veg with a tomato sauce ( home made) and a bit of cheese all microwaved.

Mid afternoon I have an egg salad with some mayo and balsamic.

Then evening is meat/chicken/fish and green veg.

I am impressed with Tom Kerridge. Got the book last week.

He talked about enjoying your diet. Maybe I will enjoy this one!

I feel lighter and have noticed more energy and find myself tidying up stuff that has been sitting for months!

About 4kg gone so far.